i should be doing HOMEWORK but...


i realized that i live in constant fear...
of my own abilities
afraid to fail, but yet im so capable...
the fuckery
iLove HARD
iHurt even worse
...my ♥ and soul should be riding shotgun in a hearse.

ive known all along that im sweet
sometimes shy
sarcastic and can be RUDE as hell
& i love it all
im insecure
im insecure
o and im insecure
i can give give and give
ill get nothing or less than i deserve

ive learned that i seek other ppl's approval
at a degree where it need not be
the ppl u love the most
will hurt u the most
ull probably never understand the things they do
but the love i have for them is way past unconditional
...our time together is our time together, and our time apart, is our time apart*
& they say if u pray, then u can get ur blessings ordered and delivered*